Assalamualaikum :)

Assalamualaikum. To those who follow me on Twitter or Instagram would know that I am now wearing hijab. Alhamdulillah :)

When I started wearing hijab, the first thing I felt was complete and safe. When I performed my prayers, it was like all my problems just faded. No more burden. That heavy feeling in your chest ? Gone. As unbelievable as it sounds, it is what it is. It wasn't easy, really. I've been planning to wear hijab since I was in standard 6 but I guess a lot of things pulled me back but now I realized, I had to have faith in myself and Allah. Alhamdulillah, my friends supported me and stood by me when I was going through a drastic change. They never left my side. My life is a lot better now and I don't worry too much or even feel sad anymore. Because every time I have a problem, I pray and talk to Him about it. Remember, He is the best listener and He is always there for you.

To the guy who is trying his level best to change for me and accept me the way I am now, thank you. I can see that you're trying, don't give up. You're better than what you used to be, I know so. Insyaallah, if we're each others' jodoh, we'll eventually end up getting married and who knows, maybe grow old together ? It's all in Allah's hands, sayang so don't you worry. I love you so much, please keep that in mind.

Assalamualaikum :)

Day 1 out of 366 days.

                                                   HAPPY NEW YEAR !            

I know I was suppose to post this yesterday but I fell asleep. Haha. Have fun reading x

Can you believe it ? 2012 already. It felt like the holidays just begun for 2011 and look, school's already starting very soon. This holiday has been a total waste for me... I didn't do much. Just went out and stuff, nothing exciting. When I was waiting for 1st January 2012, I was hoping that one somebody would wish me Happy New Year but he didn't. I waited though, I did. When the clock strike 12, no wish, I knew I was just another friend but I didn't want to be. I fell down the stairs when the clock strike 12, I guess this year ain't gonna be so nice to me. I just thought it'd be different. For once. Honestly, he doesn't know how I feel about him because I didn't tell him. Even if I did, it would be a waste of time. Trust me. He won't feel the same way. So, why should I even think of telling him ? Well, enough about him. We all just opened a new chapter in our book. New chapter, new changes. Good changes. I think it's time we live life. Eat all that you can eat, love people who love you, ignore those who hate you, experience everything you can in life before you can't because life's too short to be wasted with tiny little useless things. Smile, love, laugh ! Happy New Year, people ! Let's start with a bismillahirrahmanirahim :)

Happy Birthday, Ainin Adlin ♥

Hi, sayang ! It's 12: 40 am and here I am, writing this, hihi. It's your birthday ! We've been waiting for this the whole year, haven't we ? (; And well, here it is. 12/12/2011, you're 14, baby girl ! Okay, so, here I go. 


We first met in form 1, 2010. You were shy, and you wore hijab to school while I was loud and well, me. Haha.  We got closer in Laksamana kawad and even closer in Laksamana cheer. I didn't last long in the team during 2010 but I know I had tons of fun getting to know you and Sabby. So, since then, our friendship grew closer and stronger and hell yeah, I'm glad. The best part this year was Laksamana cheer. God knows how much I miss the times we spent together :( We fight about the stupidest things, hurt each other, talk bad about each other, backstab each other but look at  us, still being the bestfriends ever. I'm sorry for what we've gone through this year. I know it was a tough road but we're still close aren't we ? Today's your day, enjoy, have fun and I need to see you ! Haha. I miss you. A lot. Thank you for our beautiful friendship. I'll always be here if you need me. Don't ping me on BBM though. I don't want to on my phone lol. Call my triple 5 number (; Hihi, happy birthday sweetheart ! I love you so much ! :* ♥

Boys, take note.

45 THINGS A GIRL WANT, BUT WON'T ASK FOR:

1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.

ARE YOU REMEMBERING THIS?
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING ..
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say “I love her more than you”, deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.

IS SOMEONE ON YOUR MIND?
16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she’s beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her. 

THINGS YOU SHOULD DO AND ACTUALLY MEAN IT
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car - it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she’s your everything - only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her - if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT - so just hug her.
24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!

WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US ..
26. Don’t lie to her.
27. DON’T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her.
30. Be there for her whenever she needs you, and even when she doesn’t need you, just be there so she’ll know that she can always count on you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER, BECAUSE IT’S IMPORTANT.
31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.
35. Don’t ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If she’s upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER
36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHE'S LOVED.
41. Call or text her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while you’re sitting on her.

 F.Y.I : This isn 't originally mine, okay ? I got it from somewhere. Have fun reading ! :)
P/S Boys, this is extra tips to get your dream girl (;

Past.

I first met this guy on 7/11/2011. He's actually a friend of my family friend, Sara Natalia. They bumped into each other at Starbucks, KLCC and I was there with her. He said hi but we didn't talk. After that, he mentioned me on Twitter and we talked for days. As days go by, I started to have this tiny crush on him. We dm-ed each other and stuff. A few days after, on the 9th, VI held a carnival and he talked me into going. So, I did. Although we met for like 10 minutes, it meant a lot to me. Right after that, he texted me and asked me if I wanted to catch a movie but I told him, why not this weekend. He said okay. Then, he asked me if I'd like to go watch a movie with him and then go to his rugby game on Saturday and I said yes. He said he would give me his rugby jersey which has his number on it. Number 11, which is my mum's lucky number, haha. Before that Saturday, on Thursday (10/11/2011), we went to Great Eastern Mall for lunch. We talked and spent some time. That was the day he gave me his rugby jersey. The same night, I slept in it and also we played this "DM me your number" in Twitter. A person gives us a number and we tell them something about them. So, when he gave me his number, I told him I had a tiny crush on him. After that, we sorta flirted. Haha. What I thought a tiny crush was, turned into a huge one. On the day he had his rugby match, I couldn't make it. I had a wedding and I felt really bad. I sent him a good luck text but until his game started, he didn't read it. I started to worry. Around 4, the same day, I had to go to an event at OU. I wore a black cocktail dress and really tall heels. In the car, I told my mum I needed to go to VI to see him. So, we did but we got lost. When my mum wanted to go straight to OU, she remembered the road to VI. When we reached there, his game already started and to get him out of the field was just, impossible. His friends tried but didn't succeed. I got out of the car and walked to the field. Guess what ? It was wet and muddy. Believe it or not, I took off my heels and walked barefoot. People must've thought I was crazy but I did it for him anyway. After waiting for so long, I had to go. He was still playing but I know he saw me standing there waiting. So after that, I left. He lost the game, but he still won in my eyes. I needed to make it up to him, so the next day, (Sunday, 13/11/2011) we went out for a movie but not just the two of us, my brothers too. He got along pretty well with them and that's something I love about him. We cuddled in the movies and it was the best time of my life. I already started being petrified I might lose him someday. So, I started worrying. 14/11/2011, I told him I love him. He said he felt the same way but it didn't make me feel any better until he said, "As long as I'm with you, I'm all yours". My heart literally skipped a beat. Yesterday, (Tuesday, 15/11/2011) we went out for a movie again. I just love being with him because the more time I spend with him, the more comfortable I became. When I'm not with him, I start to worry and all I can think about is him. It's not a crush anymore, I fell in love.


But now, things has changed. It's complicated. We never got together and I blame it on me. Live your happy life, Azfar. I wish you all the best.

Write away.

Hello, readers. It's been years since I last blogged. I started a new one because I don't want you to read my past. Before thinking of blogging again, I would usually note down every special moment that happens or if I was upset or hurt, I would start scribbling then, write again. Honestly, it's best having a blog where you can pour out your feelings because sometimes, Twitter is never enough. It will never be. People judge too much, don't you think ? I know people judge here too, but I couldn't care less. You see, a lot has been going on. They say teenage years are a breeze. Well, they said wrong. Because teenage years are the hardest but the best. Sometimes, you're happy, sometimes you're sad but the worst times are the ones when you breakdown but you've got no one to turn to. Sucks, I know. Trust me, when I went through my depressing times, I did things I'm not proud of, at all. Things I never imagine myself doing. Readers, don't do things that changes your life permanently just because you're temporarily upset. You will regret and that feeling is never nice. I'll write very soon. Wait for my updates.